I FINALLY am settled, rested and ready to spark
as much as possible.
I've been sparking through my ANDROID. PTL for that cell.
I'm in the country,
and have found relatives I haven't spoken to for a long time, like 30 years!
I thought I had forgiven my aunt for her cruelty towards me.
When my sistrs spoke to her, she didn' ask to speak to me.
I don't know why and I DON'T CARE!
I'm sad to hear she is in hospice with OCPD.
I was all prepared to tell her I had forgiven her for her cruelty.
I also wanted to say, 'My mom will be sad to see you when you enter heaven because of your lies and hutful words to me when I was so hurt over my mos death!
really, I was her 1st born.
You are not even blood relative.
My mom died of cancer in 1974. My aunt told all of our friends and relatives it was my fault she died.
I was 22.
It crushed me for so many years.
I forgave her but I was still hurting.
I'm praying about calling her and letting her know I forgive her.
does she even KNOW she hurt me, and if not, would I be hurting her? I do NOT want to hurt her ever. I need closure but not at her expense on her death bed.
There were so many things she said and did.
Her daughter died 3 years ago. She was also cruel.
I pray she found
peace with GOD.
Did I over eat?
No, I didn't eat at all.........
I barely drank water.....
paritally fatigue from the trip, pain in my spirit over all of the old memories.
I have been stretching and I'm going to WRITE WRITE WRITE!!!
I will win this battle of weight water and moving once again.
are not going to cause me to gain today!