Catching up and trying to Re-Spark

Friday, May 01, 2015

Hello fellow Sparkers! It has been a long time since I have written anything – I believe the longest absence since joining May 26, 2009.

Life and work are going very well, but the healthy lifestyle not so much.

Mike and I are still very much in love, and although there are times he can test my patience, I wouldn’t trade our life together for anything.

My boys are going awesome! Tyler will graduate with a double major – Geographical Information Systems and Biology) a week from today. He has to intern over the summer and will hopefully find work in one of his fields by fall. Troy will finish in high school junior year at the end of the month. He has taken several college-credit classes already and will be able to take more in his senior year. He only needs three high school credits to graduate. Both work part time and I can honestly say they have never caused me much stress. I am so proud of them.

My mom continues to improve as far as the anxiety but we still find it difficult to get her to go anywhere. I would really love for her to be at Tyler’s graduation but not getting my hopes up. Mike and I, my ex, his girlfriend and maybe his mom will be there. Because it is on a Friday, Troy will be unable to attend unless he misses school and a work shift.

Work has been insanely busy, which is typical this time of year. I have been having so much fun going out to see the calves (about 120 so far), designing new brochures, our weekly newsletter and other promotional materials. Our website has just been updated and I will be able to make more changes and updates that I could in the old program – looking forward to that! I have also been working with a locksmith and our facilities manager Bob to re-key our entire facility, which included making a spreadsheet of all doors with locks and everything with a padlock – Bob and I were counting in the barns and outer building when it was 10-20 below zero in order to get things rolling. I told my boss that he has to take me out for a couple drinks when the job is completed. I am looking forward to the summer months when there will be flowers and fruit to photograph; and documenting studies by our new Entomologist.

Now if I could only get back on track physically, and find a glimmer of self-esteem. I hate how I have let myself go and this self-hate makes it even more difficult to move forward. I know I can do it, I just need a Spark!

Mike is so wonderful about letting me know that it is me he loves, not the physical. He wants me to do whatever is necessary to make myself happy about me.

A few pictures:

Getting my glam on before heading out to the cow pasture. Boots were a birthday gift from a dear friend.

Calf #11 was happy to pose for pictures.

A windy day spent by Lake Superior was so much fun!

Mike and I on the 2nd anniversary of our first date!
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  • JAVAJO47
    i have been away a rather long time myself. So good to read that all is well in your life. Maintaining a healthy lifestyle has always been a roller coaster ride....don't sweat it. We can encourage each other 😄
    2237 days ago
  • OTEN36
    Time is just flying by. Glad you are back. I have another hard 3 weeks and then I'm hoping to get to the business of enjoying summer.
    I sure hope you get a chance to spin over to the BBQ on the 21st. I'll show you what I have of the garden so far.
    I love your 4 leaf clovers on your background. :)
    Have a great week.
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    2248 days ago
  • TERRY631
    So great to hear all of your news and get caught up. Things sound just wonderful with your boys and with Mike. Such a cute calf :)
    2274 days ago
    Another birthday come and gone, right? Sounds like your life is pretty wonderful. Congrats on raising two awesome sons. (I wish I could say the same for mine…).
    Congrats on your 2 year anniversary. Yay!
    As far as Spark goes, jump back in anytime.
    2277 days ago
    Those boots ROCK! I love 'em.

    And men are supposed to test our patience... else the rest of life would seem much more difficult in comparison. Thanks to them, we can handle just about anything.

    And Tyler graduating?! Didn't he *just* start college? It sure seems that way!

    2280 days ago
  • DEE107
    welcome back
    2280 days ago
  • FRAN0426
    So glad your back sparking and updating us. You get that spark and run with it, you can do it--start back with those small steps again.
    Your sons are making your a proud mama, the oldest graduating collage soon, hope he finds a job after his internship that he will enjoy and make a new beginning without school. Your younger son a senior next fall, wow---time does fly by, I remember you mentioning him as a 12 year old .
    So happy for you and Mike celebrating the second anniversary of your first date, continued love and happiness, you deserve it.
    Sounds like your job is going very well, and you are enjoying not only the job but the new born animals, and all the summer flowers ect. to look forward to soon. Keep taking those pictures, they are so fun to see.
    2280 days ago
    Wow, already your 2nd anniversary! Time flies!! Very glamorous boots. Congrats on raising 2 wonderful sons!
    2281 days ago
    Welcome back!
    2281 days ago
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