Hello fellow Sparkers! It has been a long time since I have written anything – I believe the longest absence since joining May 26, 2009.
Life and work are going very well, but the healthy lifestyle not so much.
Mike and I are still very much in love, and although there are times he can test my patience, I wouldn’t trade our life together for anything.
My boys are going awesome! Tyler will graduate with a double major – Geographical Information Systems and Biology) a week from today. He has to intern over the summer and will hopefully find work in one of his fields by fall. Troy will finish in high school junior year at the end of the month. He has taken several college-credit classes already and will be able to take more in his senior year. He only needs three high school credits to graduate. Both work part time and I can honestly say they have never caused me much stress. I am so proud of them.
My mom continues to improve as far as the anxiety but we still find it difficult to get her to go anywhere. I would really love for her to be at Tyler’s graduation but not getting my hopes up. Mike and I, my ex, his girlfriend and maybe his mom will be there. Because it is on a Friday, Troy will be unable to attend unless he misses school and a work shift.
Work has been insanely busy, which is typical this time of year. I have been having so much fun going out to see the calves (about 120 so far), designing new brochures, our weekly newsletter and other promotional materials. Our website has just been updated and I will be able to make more changes and updates that I could in the old program – looking forward to that! I have also been working with a locksmith and our facilities manager Bob to re-key our entire facility, which included making a spreadsheet of all doors with locks and everything with a padlock – Bob and I were counting in the barns and outer building when it was 10-20 below zero in order to get things rolling. I told my boss that he has to take me out for a couple drinks when the job is completed. I am looking forward to the summer months when there will be flowers and fruit to photograph; and documenting studies by our new Entomologist.
Now if I could only get back on track physically, and find a glimmer of self-esteem. I hate how I have let myself go and this self-hate makes it even more difficult to move forward. I know I can do it, I just need a Spark!
Mike is so wonderful about letting me know that it is me he loves, not the physical. He wants me to do whatever is necessary to make myself happy about me.
A few pictures:
Getting my glam on before heading out to the cow pasture. Boots were a birthday gift from a dear friend.
Calf #11 was happy to pose for pictures.
A windy day spent by Lake Superior was so much fun!
Mike and I on the 2nd anniversary of our first date!