This is soooo hard! :(
Wednesday, June 17, 2015
I dont know what to do. Im not motivated at all. I keep skipping workouts, using my job as an excuse but at the end of the day thats all it really is - an EXCUSE! Im so disappointed in myself. Ive gained over 50lbs in the last 3 years! FIFTY POUNDS! Thats a whole human being! ughh. I try to go back on the tracker but i get so sidetracked and forget and/or try to memorize until i have time to login and then it snowballs into too much to enter so i just skip it. I do 20mins of cardio and then hate it so much and stop. I keep snacking when i should just make 3 healthy meals but im too lazy to cook or shop so i keep on snacking..ALL DAY. I dont even drink water like I used to...
This is just everything bad that i know I shouldnt be doing but I still do it. What is wrong with me????!!
Sorry...just needed to vent.