Time to Put Me First?
Thursday, June 18, 2015
The SP community has been wonderfully kind and encouraging to this newbie. I am so grateful for all the support, inspiring words and advice. One thing, though, has caused me to stop and ponder. I have received many comments along the line of "now is the time to put me first." I understand the thought behind these words--you do have to spend time focusing on your diet and exercise goals and fitting them into your daily routine. And, yes, if you don't take care of yourself others may suffer. But deep down, I know that the real reason I'm here in this place, at this time, at this weight, is because I put me and my wants first too many times in the past.
All those times I chose to eat potato chips instead of fresh veggies.
All those times I poured sour cream dressings on my "healthy" salad.
All those times I scooped up a BIG bowl of ice cream instead of a single scoop or a healthier choice of frozen yogurt.
All those times I chose to sit and watch TV or read or any other sedentary activity instead of getting up to do something active.
The times when things were going badly and I "deserved" a treat.
The times when things were going extremely well and I "deserved" a treat.
The busy times when I "deserved" to get a quick fat-laden meal instead of preparing something better.
I could go on and on....
I chose me....I chose food...
I made food an idol--no, I made myself an idol--feeding the self-idol everything I wanted, when I wanted it.
I'll call it what it is: Idol worship.
Hebrews 4:12 says, "the Word of God is living and active and sharper than any two-edged sword and piercing as far as the division of soul and spirit of both joints and marrow, and able to judge the thoughts and intentions of the heart."
I read the commandment: "I am the LORD your God,...you shall have no other gods before me."
I have been pierced to my soul. I am convicted of this sin and I repent before my Holy God. Thank You, Jesus that through your sacrifice I am forgiven. I choose to stop putting me first and I choose to put God in that rightful place.
I need to learn what He would have me eat, what He would have me do with my body.
As a born-again Christian, I know that the Spirit of the Living God abides within me. How then should I live and treat this body?
I know He loves me as I am this very moment, yet I also know He wants what is best for me. I think that means eating wisely with proper portion control,
learning more about Him each day, and
honoring Him in everything I do and say.
I have much to learn, thankfully with the Lord by my side.
So everyone, thank you for all the sweet words of encouragement--but, put ME first? NO--I will choose the LORD! (Joshua 24:15)