Why do I Reach for Food (When I'm not hungry)?
Thursday, July 30, 2015
What am I trying to get when I’m overeating—or eating when I’m not even hungry?
When and why do I improperly eat?
*When I get over-busy
*When I take on too many projects
*When my husband or son add things to my already too long to-do list
*When my plans go awry and I’m frustrated
*When everything takes twice as long to accomplish as I think it will
*When people seem to think poorly of me or just ignore me
*When it feels like my opinions don’t matter
*When everyone else seems to have friends and I sit alone
*When I make plans and invite and there is always something else more important that comes up and my plans get canceled
*When my thoughts are spoken aloud to others and no one gets my point and conversations go on as if I’d never said a word
*When I feel on the outside looking in
*When I’m the one sitting alone and forget to turn to the ONE Who is always with me
*When I’m visiting my sister and not once in the whole week did she ask about or show any interest in anything about my life in the last year, but I heard everything about hers
*When I think of all the things I’ve tried over the last 5 years to lose weight and that I’m 5 pounds heavier than when I started—Then I think, What’s the point?
The point is that people are flawed. We’re all imperfect sinners in an imperfect fallen world and I need to turn to the One Who always loves me perfectly.
His ways are higher than mine and I can trust Him in all things and all circumstances and He wants me to live a healthy life.
So knowing these things about myself shows me what I need.
There is a Bible story of a man who was cleansed of an unclean spirit. But the spirit, after finding no other place to rest, decided to return to the “house from which he came.” He took seven other unclean spirits with him and things were far worse for the man than before.
The lesson is that the hole inside of you WILL be filled with something. You need to fill it with that which is good so there is no space for evil. I can liken that to my needing a feeling of self-worth, wanting love and companionship, validation and relief from the busyness—I can fill that void with food and have a physical, sensory pleasure for a moment (and the guilt, regret and the resulting fat body)
Or I can turn to my Heavenly Father and rest in His love and comfort; knowing I’m loved and cherished. He loved me enough to send His Son to die for my sins. He holds my tears in a bottle. He can fill me to overflowing. He is the Bread of Life—The REAL food I need.
Return to you rest, O my soul,
For the Lord has dealt bountifully with you.
For Thou hast rescued my soul from death,
My eyes from tears,
My feet from stumbling.