Getting Back to a Routine 2/11/2017
Tuesday, February 23, 2016
After taking a hiatus and getting back to focusing on getting healthier, where do I start? I truly want to be committed to a healthier me, and not just in terms of eating/exercising but in EVERY aspect of my life.
As a follower of the Most High Yahuwah, daughter, wife, mother, sister, and friend how do I balance my life and still take care of myself? I have had people to tell me that you have it all together, and when my response is trust me I don't, they don't believe me. I have a love for helping others so much to the point where I have become an enabler not even realizing it. I am currently a work in process and thus have stopped enabling people, but as I stopped drama seems to come with that which can drain the life out of me at times. Inevitably I know this too shall pass, but when you are in the mist it seems as if it will never end.
Ridding my life of unhealthiness in every aspect of my life is hurtful but very necessary in order for me to go forward. Because most of this I caused, I have felt that it would be unfair of me to back off, but the person Yahushua has created me to be is slowing fading because I am trying to be there for everyone. Truthfully speaking this is not the fault of anyone because I was trying to fill a void I felt within myself. I am the type of person that when I see a need I want to help even when not being asked. Now, I am drained and tapped out and I have to stop trying to fix everything. I have to look at myself as someone who needs help and help myself if that makes sense! lol
The best thing about all of this is I am not in denial. I see myself clearly it is just a matter of getting back in routine of taking care of myself. I thank Yahushua for walking me through this process and things have gotten better in some areas and worse in the ones that matter to me the most.
I prayed today asking the Father to help me truly surrender to His will and His way, so that I will be humble. I don't want to think I am someones savior because we are all in need of a Savior and that is Yahushua (Jesus). As He walks me through this process I am sure a breakthrough will follow!
Just thanking the Father for His faithfulness!