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We Can Be Heroes...

Monday, March 14, 2016

I've been gone from SparkPeople for over a year. I got pregnant three months after I got married, and even though I lost all the baby weight almost immediately, I started gaining not long after and eventually ended up right where I started. My father died when my daughter was two months old--it will be a year this Friday, March 18th--and even though I can't pin weight gain on his loss, it definitely contributed. Grief is a physical process, I suffered from headaches, joint pains, and just all over aches for awhile. Combine that with a new baby and well...

But I know that dad would not want me to be mopey, and he always knew how much my weight bothered me. And I am finally admitting to myself how much being so heavy again is starting to affect me. I've never been small, but 250-260 is big even for me. I stopped SP last time when I was around 230, and even though that's not small according to most people, it felt good to me. Twenty pounds is twenty pounds, after all! So, alas, my first goal this time is to get back to where I was before I quit SP.

Luckily, this time I have a little physical reminder running around of what I'm trying to do. My daughter weighs 23 pounds already, so that's what I'm aiming for as my first goal. She's a beautiful little girl, and I'm so amazed by her everyday, and I want to be a good example for her, and to be a healthy momma for her. Sometimes I get mad at my dad for not taking better care of himself and leaving me so soon, and I don't want my child to feel that way. It may not always stop me reaching out for that doughnut, but that's really the biggest reason why I'm here.
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  • CBULLIS1
    Good luck with your goals. I want you to know I'm here if you need a friend
    1880 days ago
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