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Brushing Myself Off and Refocusing!!

Monday, April 04, 2016

Hey Sparkies,

So it's been FOREVER since my last blog. A month has ended and another has started and much has happened. Let's start by reviewing last month. Well let's just say that the "March to 155" was a major bust. The month started with a quite persistent plateau at 163 lbs which I unfortunately allowed to get to my head in the latter weeks and which I used during this time as an excuse to get lax with my eating which resulted in my seeing a whopping 170 lbs on the scale this morning. Yep I'm back right up there! It wasn't just the plateau, it was a combination of some other emotional issues, NOT BLOGGING and falling back into the trap of thinking that something "mysterious" that I couldn't understand was happening.

Today though I decided to re-read my February "epiphany" and I'll just re-post an excerpt from that blog here (If you read it the first time, feel free to skip it unless you need a reminder too.)

I was really struggling with my eating and I began to think "Here we go again, the cycle is going to repeat itself again." I then began to think "Why do I have periods when I'm so on track and then periods where I'm just eating junk and not staying withing my calorie range." "What is the difference?" I asked and then I answered myself, "Your choices that's what!!"

When I'm on track it's not that it's some magical period where I'm not faced with temptations or where doughnuts and pizza don't sound good. Instead those periods have been times when I've CHOSEN to say no to those things and made healthier choices and the periods when I've been off track are ones where I made more excuses than I did healthy choices. It's like a light bulb went off in my head.

It was no longer some mystery that I couldn't figure out. It was something that was totally in my control and something that I could therefore achieve!! Man can I just say that, that realization has been life changing for me. It was also further cemented by an article on consistency that I read on SP funnily enough the morning after my light bulb moment. Here's the section that spoke to me:

"Rule #1: Never tell yourself "I'm not motivated."
That's not the real problem, unless you really don't want to lose weight or live a healthy lifestyle. As long as you do want these things, you have all the motivation you need.

It may be true that sometimes you don't want to exercise, or that you really want to stop and get fast food rather than cooking dinner. That's understandable, but it doesn't mean you're not motivated.

It just means that you want two different and opposing things, and you have to make a decision. (This is the magic line right here)

Telling yourself that you lack motivation is just a way of denying that you really do have a choice. It makes the problem seem mysterious and out of your control, and it makes you feel less powerful than you really are, because you lack something (the motivation) you need. Not true!"

I don't know if I making too big a deal about this or if many of you have come to this realization already on your own but I FINALLY feel like I have what I need to get to goal. I FINALLY understand and I mean truly understand that it's in my hands!

What I didn't understand then that I understand now is that understanding that this journey is in YOUR hands doesn't mean that you can never fall back into the trap of old thinking or get lazy!!

I got lazy and I have the results to prove it but guess what I don't HAVE TO continue this trend. It's NOT something that I don't understand or can't control!! I can make the "hard" choices again. I can say now to that extra portion at dinner that I don't need. I can say no to that PB & J craving after I've had both of those portions. I can say no to bringing junk into my house. In short I can take CONTROL of my choices again and that's what I'm setting out to do this month. If you read my blogs regularly you know that every month I tend to have a long list of daily goals I want to accomplish but for the month of April my only goal is to take control of my choices again and regain my momentum.

If any of you have been struggling lately I encourage you to join me in regaining control of our choices. Let's emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon for taking the time to read and for your support.
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  • DBELLE39
    I have the continual struggle, but the key is never giving up. emoticon as you put one foot in front of the other. Success comes with persistence.
    1861 days ago
  • GLORY-
    We have all been there. ..done that...
    got the T shirt and..
    it was too little! emoticon
    1861 days ago
    Good Blog, very helpful.
    1862 days ago
    What a great blog and stuffed full of so may things to stop and think about when we those moments as we travel to good health

    1862 days ago
    Great blog!! I am struggling with emotional eating right now. I started a twelve step eating issues group at my church, so it is faith based. Very different from regular twelve step programs. I have been taking foodcto bed when I am not even hungry!!

    Bad habits creap up so fast the the yo yo-ing starts again. Need to break that cycle. I can do it!!! I can and I choose to break it!!

    Thanks for sharing!! I am kinda in the same boat. Hope we don't dunmp it over!! Yeek!!

    1862 days ago
    such a good blog, so true to so many of us, thank you my friend
    1862 days ago
    That's the best . . . it's not that we're unmotivated . . . it just means that you want two different and opposing things, and you have to make a decision. (This is the magic line right here)

    AMEN! That sentence is worth it's weight in gold.

    1862 days ago
  • no profile photo CD16070360
    Well, I just let go of all control today and hate anything and everything. I better not get on the scales for a week while trying to start "getting the control" as of tomorrow.I think I will put off the scales for a while for I sure did enjoy the binge. Shame on me!LOL! However, I am really serious about joining you in getting in control. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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    Comment edited on: 4/5/2016 9:03:37 PM
    Good for you recognizing what you need to do and committing to it. Committing to a plan and actually executing it of course are not the same but emoticon Everyone has days when it is tougher to stay on track, but if you have one little slip or setback you can't let it throw you off. Just get back on the horse and keep riding!

    Good luck in April with you eating and weight loss goals!
    1862 days ago
    Ok, THIS blog should be a featured blog post, SERIOUSLY!! This blog hit the nail on the head!
    When you wrote it out it clicked in my head that I do the SAME THING!!
    Sometimes I'll skip a workout and think
    'ah I'm just unmotivated this week"
    NOT TRUE!!
    I let the thought win when in reality i'm probably feeling lazy or want to sleep in or stressed etc. I let the scale creep back up for march too.
    This week I am determined to regain control, no ifs ands or buts!
    Thanks for the emoticon blog!!
    1863 days ago
    I'm right there with you. You can get through this
    1863 days ago
    Great blog and I am so glad you got it out to the great audience of Sparks! Love it!
    1863 days ago
    I am with you in the CHOICES struggle, we reap the results of those choices...my weight is up too...I need to choose a different path & re-focus!!! Let's do this together..because you know WE CAN!!!! emoticon
    1863 days ago
    when the pieces fall together, it all becomes much easier. You can do it, you know you can do it, and you will do it. I believe in you!
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    1863 days ago
    You CAN and you WILL switch up your choices because you have strength and goals. You are absolutely right that different results require different choices. This is an excellent blog - because it was honest and because it spoke to our common struggle. Old habits die hard.......I'm not sure that they do die. It is so simple to let go of new habits. Unfair I say!!

    My mantra for April will be "Different results come with different choices".

    Just a thought...Have you ever thought about the No S Diet - it is basically 3 meals, no snacks, sweets or seconds except on S days (weekends). Everything you need is on their online site.
    1863 days ago
  • SUGAR0814
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    1863 days ago
    I hope the refocusing is working for you again. You know how and why, but sometimes our emotions take us off our path. I agree with the don't bring it in the house, but then I stray a little and before I know there is more than expected there to eat. I love PB & J (or banana) like crazy too - I don't bring bread into my house to help with that one. I will put PB on a banana on occasion - but not too often or then I will be buying bread to make two sandwiches!

    Your positive attitude is always a joy - thank you for sharing!

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    1863 days ago
    Positive, uplifting thinking takes you farther than the opposite. emoticon Failing is part of our journey in every sense, we are not perfect, but we can surely keep trying!! emoticon

    Good, better, best
    Never let it rest
    Until your good is better
    and your better best!
    1863 days ago
    I have had recent struggles. I am right here with your focused on regaining control of our choices. Let's do this!

    Feel free to add me if you like. We can do this! We totally can!
    1863 days ago
    I am planning a trip to visit my brother in May and I am also starting to hike more. I am totally with you! I need less of me to carry around. Let's do this!!!

    More movement and Good Choices!!!
    1863 days ago
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