Monday, April 11, 2016
I stopped by my doctors office today on an errand. I hopped the scales. I weighed what I weight at home - no big deal. When I got a minute i logged into my online patient profile. I was crushed. Between Last June and now the numbers say I have only lost 12 lbs. I was weighed at the Hospital in March of 15. which is my starting weight. I thought i was down 38ish lbs! June of 15 was an office visit. and then this morning. Is all this really worth it. I have been since the first of August of 15 taking 500 - 700 calories less than my maintenance - my differential daily averages a minus 900 - MINUS 900 . Even Christmas, Thanksgiving, and Easter were still right at my "maintenance" calories. In December I added going to the community center walking... my hip hurts.. so i ponied up for the gym and for 3 months i have been there at least 3 if not 5 hours a week. TWELVE POUNDS. WHAT THE H E DOUBLE TOOTH PICKS I have been weeks trying to shake this last plateau that I THOUGHT would get me beyond the 40 mark and on my way to 20 more down... TWELVE. I am beyond disappointed. So much effort, so much hope and dedication ... and T W E L V E. And it is a rainy day where it will be a struggle to keep a good attitude and want to push at the gym. It may take more than my dream of a new life, It may take more than a village, I dont know what it will take. I am wearing clothes 2 sizes smaller almost 3.. I know all of this is about living a better healthier life, but i was really feeling it for the new/old me... Stomping off, mad... TWELVE.... aruuughhghh.