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My crime was dropping a teaspoon -- it was a lightbulb moment

Friday, April 15, 2016

So it's the 2 year anniversary of dropping a teaspoon accidentally. i was preparing Sunday dinner from scratch. A lean pork loin with roasted vegetables.

Someone came out to say something and for some reason, I startled and dropped a teaspoon. It made a small noise.

This so angered the other person that they called me an "Effing Inconsiderate Idiot" for interrupting their train of thought. Effing isn't the exact word; it was the actual 4-letter word.

While I was being glared at, I realized they wanted an apology. But my mind went, OMG, I've got to cut my losses and leave. They are always angry at something. Nothing I do is right.

I had tried for 7 years to live with a high level of anger, tantrums, and the refusal to discuss anything with me. I felt I had to give it a chance because there was a psychic cost to leaving I wasn't ready to pay.

I hoped nothing showed on my face. After dinner I called someone in another country and began making arrangements to leave. In 3 weeks time, I had broken away.

I don't think I would have had the energy to do everything in 3 weeks time if I hadn't been working out and eating right. My esteem had been boosted by the attention to taking care of myself.
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  • EILEEN828
    Clearly you did the right thing. That situation would have never changed for the better. I can also relate to finding yourself in the position of not wanting to move, everyone's situation is unique, and sometimes it really isn't the right time. Just know that you made the best choice at that time, and in those circumstances, with what you knew. It was not a mistake and neither does it mean that it will always stay that way. Congratulate yourself for being bold when the time became right. Proof positive that you are a growing person, growing in strength and wisdom and confidence.
    1886 days ago
  • EISSA7
    Wise decision to remove yourself from such a verbally abusive situation. I am glad you had the emotional strength to do it.
    1887 days ago
  • BUDGETMAW
    I'm glad you got away. Sometimes it is the smallest things that make the biggest difference.
    1887 days ago
  • VANILLASKY15
    Good for you.
    1887 days ago
  • DAWNSUCCESS
    I am so glad you got away from that toxic environment.
    1887 days ago
  • DONDAIN
    Congratulations on your escape. Wow.
    1887 days ago
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