So today I'm compelled to just take a moment and say what an
place SparkPeople is!! I shudder to think where many of us would be without the support, motivation, information, tools and everything else that we get on SparkPeople.
Today for example I decided to take some "Progress Pics" because I finished my second round of Insanity yesterday
and started my third round of Insanity: Max 30 this morning
. Now I was reaaaaaaaaaaaaaaalllly hoping for these pictures to show me at least some progress because I haven't been getting that from the scale or even the tape measure. So I took my pictures this evening all the while praying in the back of my mind "Please let there be progress, please let there be progress!" I then got my pics from February 23rd and was there progess....... NOOOOOOO!!!!! Suffice it to say I was crushed and feeling REALLY defeated because I honestly felt like I had wasted 4 weeks of hard work exercising only to have no progress because my eating was whack. It was not a good feeling and I think without Spark I would not have moved forward well from this but then I read Autie J's blog "Lessons From the Slope" and there was so much truth and encouragement in that one little blog that my outlook changed immediately!!
I may not have made any "progress" these last 4 weeks but I also didn't regress. Not only that but I'm not DEAD, I still have time Lord's willing to make as much progress as I'm willing to WORK FOR!! I stress WORK FOR because lately I've adopted a laid back attitude with my eating, eating as if I'm in maintenance instead of still trying to lose weight so is it any wonder that I maintained for a month!! It's no secret
It doesn't matter how much we hope this isn't so or how much we live like this isn't so, it remains a fact. Sometimes especially on this journey we moan and we cry and we say "Oh why can't we get to goal or lose weight" and "Oh we're putting in so much work and not getting results" when in actuality if we take a hard and serious look at the "work" we're doing it lines up exactly with the "results" or lack thereof that we're getting.
Today I'm owning up to the fact that I was undisciplined with my eating this past month and that I said way too many "yeses" which should have been "nos" and that I had too many days of "today is already out the window, you may as well...." I am declaring today a day of putting an end to all these behaviors and actually putting in the work. I know it's probably not the best time to choose to do this because of my exams but you know what
I refuse to use this "season" of my life as an excuse to not push and so I'm challenging myself to 30 days of staying within my calorie range. It won't be easy but most things in life aren't and it's surely worth a try. I hope that if you're feeling down or defeated today some part of this
community would have uplifted and motivated you because it sure did that for me today!!.
for reading!! Let's all
P.S. Here's a link to the blog if you're interested. It's a bit long but well worth the read www.sparkpeople.com/mypa