Pregnancy or adoption?
Wednesday, May 25, 2016
A lot has happened since last time I blogged. Or hasn't happened.
We are still trying to conceive a our first baby. It's been 32 months now (since Dec. 2013), including two failed IUI's. I feel like I am starting to give up hope. When we had just started we talked about 'how far' we would go (IUI? IVF?), and I always thought I would do everything I could to conceive, just to avoid a feeling of 'if I just would have' later on. But now that we have finished two rounds of IUI, I am starting to have a bad feeling about all the medicines I would need to take should we try IVF.
In the mean time I started with a Yoga Teacher Training, which is making me realize more and more that I want to take care of my body and my mind. Taking lots and lots of hormones, and doing everything, no matter the costs, just does not fit with being kind to myself. The yoga training also helps me accept the things I cannot change and gives me courage to change the things I CAN change.
In relation to this, we are seriously considering adoption now. I know this will be a long procedure as well, and I am not planning to quit all medical treatment right away. We will probably finish all 6 IUI procedures (unless of course by some miracle I do get pregnant before that), and we have not yet made a final decision about a possible IVF procedures. But it feels good to give ourselves more than one option. Besides, even if I did get pregnant, we would still consider adopting a second or third child.
If there is anyone out there who has adopted, I would love to hear from you!