My first time around on Spark, I was motivated, pumped up and ready to lose! And better still, ready to NEVER pick those pounds back up. I had a great workout routine, I weighed and measured everything I ate and I did great! I'm not saying it was a perfect journey, I had my lazy spells where I'd do nothing, eat poorly and low and behold, here come 20 of those pounds I swore I was done with, creeping back onto my stomach! I'd buckle down, do what I knew worked for me and there they'd go again, sliding back off!
Then I hit the 99 pounds down mark.... I was SO excited! 100 lbs right around around corner! It was such a big deal, something to be celebrated, and I was armed with streamers and ready to party! And then it didn't happen.... Oh well, retention, bloating, it'll happen next week. Nope, still nothing.
I thought I was armed with streamers and noise makers, when in reality, I was collecting bricks of self doubt and inner loathing to construct my very own wall of "you're not good enough and don't deserve this".
5 years later and guess what I'm armed with THIS time? Sledgehammers and blasting caps to TEAR THAT DOWN!!!! I DESTROYED MY WALL!!!!!
Today's weigh-in puts me at 101.2 pounds down!!! I actually passed the 100 lb mark yesterday, but I wanted to save the news for weigh-in day...plus I was afraid it might bounce back up again lol.
If it bounces back up a few pounds now, I'm ok with that. I know this is a complicated dance we do, and I'm not always aware of all the steps, but I KNOW that by working out and eating right, I WILL make forward progress toward the next goal!