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Still trying to figure it all out!!

Monday, June 20, 2016

Hey Sparkies,

So I've fallen behind on my blogging again and honestly it's because I've just had a rough few days eating wise and was not in any mood to blog about that. My stay within my calorie range challenge went well for about 8 days with me even losing 4 lbs but then I just lost my drive and my eating got out of control and sadly according to the scale those 4 lbs are all back today.

I don't know what I've been missing lately but that killer focus that has led me to much success in the past is just absent. I just feel like I need to give myself some accountability and that's why I was so excited about the 30 day challenge but then eventually it just felt like I was all alone doing the challenge. All the people who had expressed interest weren't posting or doing anything that I could see and so I felt like I had no one to cheer on and no one to cheer me on. I thrive on the energy of people who are pushing for their goals and without that energy my drive just fizzles.

I also didn't have the energy of all you lovely folks because I wasn't blogging either and so I just had a couple horrible days and right now I'm just trying to figure out where to go from here. I don't know if I want to do another 30 day challenge because I just feel like failing at yet another one will not be good for my morale. I've also been trying to find an accountability partner because when I've had my greatest success here on Spark I had one.

When I started Spark in 2013 I had a emoticon accountability partner! We totally clicked personality wise and we were both fighters and with her help and support I got down to 158 lbs from 184 lbs in just 3 months but then she just pooof... up and disappeared. I sparkmailed and sparkmailed (because that's how we used to communicate) and then I even emailed and emailed(because that was our use in case of emergency means of communication) but nothing. I swear I even tried checking obituaries because I was so concerned. Anyway after losing contact with her life got in the way and I hopped back on my 20-30 lb roller coaster to which I am still strapped in to this day.

I soooooooooooo want to get off this ride though because I am sick and TIRED of it!!

So I'm trying again. Going to get back to daily or at most every other day blogging. I'm also going to challenge myself from today to 15 days within my calorie range. I think that's manageable and that's what I'm going to do. I'm also looking forward to being inspired by the 5% Challenge that's starting this Saturday.

I know that this isn't much of my usually positivity and energy but I guess all in all as my blog title says I'm just still trying to figure it all out. Let's all emoticon emoticon

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    Hang in there - we all have a cycles of ups and downs. And I do agree it is so very sad when our sprk buddies just disappear. But you are a fighter and I know you can do it!
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  • NEXTSTEP2014
    What do you want from an accountability partner? I might be interested, but I don't exactly know what it entails?
    1788 days ago
    Like you, I am ALSO trying to figure things out...when nothing is working it's TIME to CHANGE things up...I call it EXPERIMENTATION both with my eating & movement....I'm finally on day 2 of my EXTRA summer SWEAT to up my cardio & lose the pounds...I found & ordered some new DVD's from Team Beachbody...waiting until they come in to CIZE them up...in the meantime I keep adding protein as a QUALITY filler & knowing & measuring all my foods...so far so good....I know you like the Insanity & other challenges...get yourself into one small change & do it daily...little steps make BIG results...I already feel stronger & I blog on Tuesdays RELIGIOUSLY...

    Even though it's now officially summer, I will continue the spring 30 day challenge until I complete it...no worries, if you blog your efforts I PROMISE us sparkers will support you & HOLD YOU ACCOUNTABLE!!!! emoticon emoticon
    1788 days ago
    I'm sorry about your Spark partner. That's one thing I really don't like, when people just disappear. I prefer a slap in my face with words than not knowing what happened! Oh, well. You need to get the bull by its horns and do this emoticon Ups and downs will always be there (imho).
    1788 days ago
    yep I fell too, this whole year hasn't been going so well weight wise. I thought by now I'd be happily maintaining and toning up. Nope, still battling regain. I got pretty depressed about it but am fighting my way out of it. Why live my life depressed? No matter what my weight I'm going to enjoy life and be strong!
    I'm thinking of trying some new workouts to see if that helps me get some mojo going again!
    Keep at it! Don't pressure yourself with a challenge but take it one day at a time. Mark it off on a calendar, that helps me a lot. Seeing the days fill up with all my workouts makes me feel awesome!
    We can do it!!
    1788 days ago
    Sometimes we slip and fall. As long as we keep getting up we haven't failed. I've been where you are, it tough, I know--but I'll never stop trying. I feel your pain and frustration--keep on pushing--you CAN and WILL do it. I wish you the best
    1788 days ago
    YOU CAN DO THIS!!!!!
    1789 days ago
    I am doing the same thing as you... I am trying to figure it all out... and find something that works for me long term. I am Greek and "diet" in Greek means "a way of life". I am trying to do what I can everyday so I can find my balance. I hope you can also find your way of life so there won't be so many ups and downs.
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  • SUGAR0814
    emoticon You will do great!
    1789 days ago
    I hope you find what you are looking for within the 5% Summer Challenge starting this week. I know I am hoping for some rejuvenation with new challenges and new energies. Keep moving it seems your exercise is very important and gives you a sense of control.

    Sorry for your low feelings, but it is only temporary - like the false weight gain that's probably water!


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  • BREEZIE218329
    We all fall...just refocus...you got this
    1789 days ago
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