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A Ghost From the Past

Thursday, July 07, 2016

I saw a ghost from the past today. I was at a crosswalk waiting for the light to change and standing beside me was a young woman/girl who was clearly anorexic. Thin, twiggy arms and legs, huge eyes in an emaciated face, and goose bumps on her arms even though it was sunny and warm. My heart dropped and my feet and hands went cold. For a moment I felt all the terror of being anorexic come rushing back. The fear of knowing that I was in real trouble, cold all the time, breathless and trembling after climbing a flight of stairs, and still not able to bring myself to eat a pop tart. I felt so much empathy for her and so grateful that I escaped.
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    I was there once too...
    1807 days ago
    I feel grateful that you escaped too!

    I see such ghosts from time to time too but if I'm honest, I still sometimes feel a twinge of competitive jealousy when I see those fatless, muscle-free, skin and bone limbs. During my anorexic phase, a euphoric sense of achievement triumphed over the fear, terror, and physical symptoms of always being cold, exhausted, in pain and foggy-brained. It's such a pernicious illness.

    May you find everlasting peace within your body as it is today.
    1807 days ago
    Ty for sharing
    1809 days ago
    You have come a long way! Hope she too can conquer this.
    1809 days ago
    So happy you conquered
    1809 days ago
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