I've been back in NL a little over a month now and have to be honest, I miss my son, granddaughters and siblings so much. Also miss the Bay Area and all the things it represents. However, I was determined this time not to fall back into a depression when I got back home, which happens often, mostly due to heartache and longing and isolation as I am not working. The first few weeks, I went to the beach alot, walked in the park, started swimming, went to the library, movies, etc, anything to get me out of the house. And to keep me from thinking too much about how much I miss my sweet granddaughters. I admit it, they are the love of my life! Ok, am a bit biased, but they are the sweetest 13 year old girls ever! I love how they are turning out, so nice and funny as well!
Anyway, back home and I was doing pretty good but then I caught some low grade virus that has hung in for more than a week, which meant staying home alot. Did most of my steps on the treadmill or walked a bit in the neighborhood because I love sticking to my promise of at least 10,000 steps a day. Have broken so many promises to myself over the years concerning eating and exercise that I just want to keep this one. I have a beautiful wall calendar in the bedroom with a small smiley star sticker for at least 10,000 steps/day and a large one for over 20,000. It makes me happy to look at it! So many stars now!
In terms of weight loss, that is also going well, lost a bit more this week probably due to not feeling well, but hey, I'll take it! My 2 jars of marbles have almost equal amounts as I am nearly at my halfway mark. Still remember starting the jar and putting 2 marbles in the one after my first 2 kilo weight loss and feeling scared but determined to do it this time and make it the last time I need to lose the weight! But it sure was overwhelming looking at the jar with all the marbles of kilos I needed to lose compared to the one with 2 marbles in it. But last week I had to put a star sticker on my weight loss jar because I couldn't tell them apart anymore!
Another NSV this week. We went to the airport to get my steps in as it was raining and I still did not feel very well and there are no huge malls around here to walk in. The airport has shops and restaurants and so many different people from all over the world. Always interesting place to people watch and have my beloved latte. There is also part of a plane with about 6 rows of seats and a cockpit so people (mostly kids) can go in and pretend they are flying somewhere. Well, I have used that plane before to see how much weight I still need to lose by how tight the seat is and if I can get the seatbelt fastened. We walked by and I thought, ah why not? I had not been in it since starting again with my healthy foodplan and exercise. And low and behold, not only did I fit in the seat without having to lift the armrest, the seatbelt fit with a few inches to spare! I was shocked! And so happy and grateful. My DH said he was not surprised at all as he can see how much I have lost. Think my mind still has to catch up with that fact, because I want to lose so much more. But this was a huge victory for me and I almost started to cry as I sat in that plane with the kids, as our 8 year old 'pilot' pretended to fly us around the world! It filled me with an intense feeling of gratefulness. Hard to explain but anyone of you who has been worried about plane seats because of weight can understand. I was on a high all day because of that plane seat and belt!
So yesterday I finally started to feel better, am still tired but at least no headache, body aches or dizziness. I admit to feeling down and am sure it is because of not being able to get out and do alot of things. The full force of missing my family has hit me. But I am determined not to fall back into a depression. So, once I am done here, it's time to get moving, lots to clean, need to practice piano, and take a nice walk outside as it is sunny today.
My goal for this month is to increase my weight training. I have not been consistent with this. Perhaps I need another sticker board.
Works for me!
Now on to the halfway mark!!
Thanks for listening!