Sunday, January 29, 2017
I've been struggling with my diet lately, and while I know it's tied to lack of sleep, I have to find a way to fight through this. I don't believe in coincidences, so let me share my experiences last night...
A friend told me about a show called "My 600 lb life". It's on Hulu. I watched Paula's episode last night. Man. This is NOT a show you watch to feel better, but her story felt a bit like my own. I know all the 'right things to say', but need to work harder at doing them.
My DS10 likes to watch a Life Church sermon/lesson by Craig Groeschel before going to bed. Last night's was about "Discipline Over Regret". Here's the link if you want to watch it: www.youtube.com/watch?v=
. The verses he used in Romans 7:15-25 resonated with me. Part of verse 15 reads, "For I don't understand what I am doing. For I do not do what I want – instead, I do what I hate". And then Craig talks about doughnuts. He doesn't eat them, and it's not because he doesn't like them. It's because he LOVES them. I totally get where he's coming from.
Seems like those two lessons (Paula's and Craig's) went hand-in-hand for me. So today I'm starting with "What if...". What if I stayed true to my plan? What if I just said 'not now' to those foods in the cupboard that were not planned for? What if I went to bed at 8 pm with my DD3 so that when she woke me up I would have had *some* sleep? What if I just focused and trusted my plan to take me to goal and didn't give credence to "The Negotiator"?
I hope I'm not bringing anyone down with this. It helps for me to get my thoughts out, even if no one reads them. In fact, I'm not starting today sad or down. I'm starting today with renewed hope. Hope and forgiveness. I'm really good at criticizing myself and tearing myself down for the bad choices I make - years of practice, in fact. Instead of living with regret I will count my blessings: 1) I weigh less today than I did a couple of months ago, 2) I have a great eating plan in place, 3) I am physically able to move my body, 4) I have a family that loves me. So I'm going to take what progress I have made and use it to bank on my future. Today I weigh 192.5. On October 31st I weighed 204. I plan to reach my goal weight of 138 this year. I have all the tools I need to get there. What if I applied myself to THIS goal as I have to so many other things in life?