Learning to live with body image issues.
Saturday, April 15, 2017
Now that I'm getting closer to my goal weight, not there yet though. I'm having problems with body image what I see and what others see are two totally different things. And the sad realization is that I know I have a problem it is driving me crazy and family and friends too. I still see the 3 extra large t-shirt size twenty four pants gal that was me, she still looks back at me from the mirror. This to me is a whole new battle ,your mind is the worst enemy you can have, no matter how much my wonderful husband and children tell me I look small, my mind tells me otherwise. I know my family loves me and supports me all the way . But I am my own worst enemy. It saddens me but until I can get a hold on this I still put my family though crap. I feel so alone even though I am not . I just keep telling myself they don't understand they've never gone through the self loathing , hating everything about yourself, wishing you where anyone but you.I fear that I will never shake the fat me from my mind . I also know I am not alone when it come to thinking this way there are so many of us out there, that live with our on personal kind of demons , I hope they also have family or friends that stand by them.