Home for the Holidays
Thursday, November 09, 2017
My mom passed away 4 years ago on Thanksgiving day, and the holiday season has been a little tough since then. I've been trying to create new traditions, but things just are not the same.
This year it hit me hard; Dad and I had planned to go to a local restaurant for Thanksgiving dinner (we don't have other family near by - my son is in Boston, and I have 1 brother in Montana and 1 in Wisconsin), and then we received an invitation to go to a friend's home. All was good until Dad said that they had also invited us for Christmas and then I just lost it. I realized that the family traditions that I so lovingly honored with my mom, grandma, and great grandmother, are no more. I'm mourning the loss of visiting with my mom while we prepared Thanksgiving dinner; I'm cherishing the handwritten recipes from my grandmothers. But most of all, the loss of family members has finally reached my core and I am grieving in a way that I haven't before.
Rather than allow this to be an excuse to chuck it all and forget about my weight loss and fitness goals, it has filled me with a new resolve and determination. Maybe it is the realization of the short time we have here on earth; maybe it's simply the fact that I want to feel as good as I possibly can as I age. Whatever the cause, I find myself with renewed motivation and commitment to eating healthy and taking lots of walks with the pups. Who knows? I might even add a stretching routine to my day!
I know that many struggle at this time of year - I wish you all many blessings for a healthy and happy holiday season.