Tuesday, December 05, 2017
I went from 160 lbs to 115 lbs, to now 135.2 lbs this morning. Starting over yet again. I now need to lose 10.2 lbs to be at 125 lbs. my clothes are getting tight again. I feel like I just don’t want to do this anymore. Losing weight yet again. I have been delighting myself with SUGAR! Lots and lots of sugar. It is a lust of the flesh I have been feeding that lust, and guess what? Weight gain! Cholesterol is up also. Why? Because I lust after it, crave, desire, make it my idol! SUGAR. My idol. Where I go to make me feel better! Sugar. My idol. Lord, help me! I confess my sin, but I don’t know how to repent when I still want it, still crave it, it is my hearts desire and I don’t know how to stop! I’ve tried for years. Years and years, and I go right back to it! Here I am yet again! Lord help me to repent! In Jesus name I pray, amen!