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RETURNING TO LOVE

Saturday, August 11, 2018

I HAVE BEEN MISSING IN ACTION THESE PAST FEW YEARS AND MY WEIGHT HAS NOT INCREASED BUT WENT DOWN SIGNIFICANTLY AND THEN WENT UP TO WHERE IT WAS WHEN I LEFT SPARK TO MOURN MY HUSBAND AND TAKE CARE OF MY MOTHER.

I HAD TO LEARN THE HARD WAY, AND ITS TRULY LEARNED NOW, THAT YOU CANNOT BE SUCCESSFUL AT ANYTHING IN LIFE IF YOU DON'T LOVE GOD AND THEN YOURSELF FIRST. THE DAYS OF MY MAKING THE CHOICE TO SACRIFICE MYSELF FOR OTHERS OR PUT MYSELF ASIDE FOR CHALLENGES AND DIFFICULTIES FORGETTING TO NOURISH ALL I NEED ARE OVER.

I AM ON THE TRUE JOURNEY, FOR WHICH I OVERLOOKED ALL MY LIFE WHICH IS TO LOVE MYSELF. I HAVE FAILED MYSELF IN THE PAST YEARS AND NOW AM ASKING GOD FOR THE STRENGTH AND COURAGE TO REPAIR WHAT I HAVE DONE TO MY BODY AND WHAT I HAVE ALLOWED LIFE'S HARDSHIP DO TO MY SPIRIT.

AFTER THE RECENT LOSS OF MY MOTHER WHOM I CHOSE TO TAKE CARE OF, MY HUSBAND NOT TO LONG BEFORE HER AND OTHERS WHO WERE IMPORTANT TO MY EVERYDAY LIFE I AM NOW CONFRONTED WITH THE FACT THAT I HAVE NEGLECTED THE PERSON WHO SHOULD BE GIVING ME ALL THE LOVE AND CARE AND HAPPINESS I NEED..........ME.

I NOW LOOK IN THE MIRROR AND FACE THE GOOD AND THE BAD OF IT AND THANK GOD THAT I AM STILL HERE (DESPITE MY NEGLECT) AND PRAY FOR THE MIRACLE TO REINVENT MYSELF TO AGAIN HAVE THE HEALTH, WEALTH AND HAPPINESS AND JOY I KNOW GOD WANTS FOR ALL OF US.

I AM GRATEFUL TO BE ABLE TO COME BACK TO MY SPARK FAMILY WHO HAS ALWAYS BEEN A SOURCE OF SUPPORT THROUGHOUT MY JOURNEY. FORGIVING MYSELF FOR THE PAST CRIMES AGAINST MYSELF, OF NOT PUTTING HEALTH FIRST.
I AM EXCITED NOW TO START ANEW. . emoticon
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  • SENIORSAXLADY
    I am so happy that you are choosing to love yourself. That is so important. There is no one like you..No one has your smile, your personality, your kindness, your you. God has made all of us unique and special. I too had to learn that. You can do this. emoticon emoticon
    225 days ago
  • NJ_BEACHCOMBERS
    Welcome back
    1005 days ago
  • 1FARMER
    Welcome home. emoticon We are the SparkPeople Army and we are here for each
    other. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

    1006 days ago
  • MNABOY
    WAY TO GO! You will lead some of us to better life styles.
    1006 days ago
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    I hope this is a journey of the heart and mind getting us to where we need to be to be healthy and happy.
    And it is certainly time to put yourself first.

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    1006 days ago
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