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Thursday, July 18, 2019

All my life I have tried to do what I have seen people do for getting somewhere in life with finance, communication, you name it but where they succeed... I get misunderstood and taken for a child. My parents abused me mentally and physically... pulling and pushing me around... one was threatening to overpower me by taking all my grandad was going to leave to me... I am sick of not feeling like I can possibly overpower someone rather than me being overpowered by people in life.

does anyone really blame me for seeming so stressed, annoyed or in rage?

I try to bring my weight up to where it should be for my age and height and... something in this stupid lousy world makes me have anxiety and I go from 7st 6 to being 7st 0 ... all I do is lose and no gaining... It is the same in other physical aspects of appearance and same mentally...

I never realised how pathetic I am until recent days...
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    You are not pathetic at all! You are a beautiful person inside and out. I agree with your own best friend and take care of yourself. I am sorry that you are going through a rough time right now. Keep pushing to get through it. You matter and are a wonderful person.
    744 days ago
    talking about all this to or with someone that can help you navigate this will help you feel much better about yourself. Because in the end the only one that matters is you and you beating yourself up doesn't help, become your own best friend and do what ever you need to do to get over all that stuff inside. letting it out gives you back your power, been there done all that
    745 days ago
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    It's hard to see how people can get along sometimes, when the "world" we are a part of is coloured by difficulty in understanding the average person and perceiving things in a different way.

    But there isn't any point getting angry at the fact autism makes us look at the world in a different way, we just have to find our way to make it.

    745 days ago
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