Something to get off my chest
Sunday, March 01, 2020
This week's challenge... blogging. I'm really not much of a blogger but today at least I have something to get off my chest.
I'm anxious. Why you might ask? Well I have a gynecologist appointment tomorrow. Normally I kinda look forward to them. Usually they bring half decent news with them. This one might be different. You see, last week I found a lump on my vulva. It's small, only about the size of a pea, but it's there nonetheless. I'm hoping it's just a benign cyst, that would be the most preferred outcome, but let's face it, there's a chance it's cancer. It's something I don't even want to think about. And yet, I can't stop thinking about it. How do I stop? There's nothing I can do about it, at least until tomorrow, so why am I so worried? Right now I'm contemplating the mundane. Do I shower tonight? Do I shower tomorrow? Do I go to the gym before the appointment? I usually do Spin on Mondays but I think it's cutting it too close to the appointment. I could go spin on my own, early or maybe hit the elliptical. But I just don't know what to do. I'm not sure I can focus well enough to work out. I just keep going back to that lump. Wondering what exactly it could be and even how long has it been there without my noticing. Well, I'm sure you've heard enough of my rambling thoughts. In any case, I'll be back tomorrow afternoon with an update. Wish me luck!