Why I'm Doing This
Friday, May 29, 2020
I have a lot of reasons for trying to get healthier, and I'd like to write them out as a way to motivate myself to not give up. I weighed in this morning, and while the scale is moving down, I've only lost 3 lbs. in 4 weeks. Not only is it healthier to lose slowly, but it's also more likely that you'll keep the weight off long term. But I still get that feeling of frustration that I haven't lost more. I want things to move quicker! Here are the reasons I'm losing weight, and the reason I want to keep it off FOREVER, even if that means moving slowly.
1. I want to have a healthy baby.
My doctor and I had a discussion at the end of last year about ways I can insure that I will have a healthy and safe pregnancy. Of course, she said it would be great to take some weight off, but it's just as important that I'm moving my body and getting some cardio in. I want to be able to establish healthy habits that I can carry through a pregnancy and beyond. My psychiatrist also wants me to wean off of my anti-depressants before trying to get pregnant, so exercise and better eating is only going to help with that process as well.
2. I want to be able to pass healthy habits to my child(ren).
When I have a child, I don't want them to grow up with the same food hang-ups that I have! It's easy to see that my mom and sisters have similar issues to me, and that these run in families. I also have two stepchildren that live with us, and they already do not have the healthiest habits. I want to influence them as well.
3. I want to feel better about myself in my relationship.
My husband has never made me feel bad or unattractive because of my weight. I've got that covered myself. He is a very fit 6'5" tall, so while he always says he prefers curves, I feel pretty frumpy next to him. He's definitely supportive of my healthier living mission, but for health reasons as opposed to looks. But the fitter I feel, the sexier I feel! And I want to feel sexy!
4. I want to travel more.
I love traveling, but I prefer active vacations. We often go to national or state parks to go hiking and kayaking. I want to be able to take these trips without feeling the wear and tear on my body afterwards. I've gone on too many trips where I went from being a couch potato to walking 7-10 miles in a day. Then I'm useless for days after the trip is over. This has happened after our trips to the White Mountains, Allegheny National Park, and Disney World.
5. I want to eligible for better roles in community theatre.
I do a lot of community theatre. I'm a music and theatre teacher, so performing is a special hobby of mine. In the past few years, I've been in Sunset Boulevard, Oklahoma, Titanic, Big Fish, The Hunchback of Notre Dame, The Addams Family, and many other musicals. I've been a 'featured ensemble member' in almost all of these. I know that if I lost weight, I would be considered for more romantic leads. I don't think it should be this way, but it is. It would no doubt help my confidence in auditions as well. I also remember struggling during Big Fish because of the large dance numbers. I just wasn't in shape enough to handle all the cardio. I never want to feel that way again!