Sunday, June 14, 2020
Last week I worked really hard on eating well and exercising a lot. I was really proud of all the good decisions I made. But the night before my Friday morning weigh in, I found myself stressing about what the results would be! Instead of being confident, I found myself staring at the ceiling dreading what the scale would say. What if I had worked hard all week and the scale hadn't budged? That led to: What if me worrying all night make me gain weight back? WHAT AM I DOING? IS THIS ALL WORTH IT?
The next morning I weighed in. I had lost two pounds. I was really excited, but then had to take a moment to revisit my feelings the evening before. If this is going to be my new lifestyle, I can't let it stress me out. I need to be making the right decisions because I know that it's healthier, not because I want a certain number to pop up once a week. I love the song "The Next Right Thing" from Frozen II. (I cry basically every time I hear it, which is a lot because I have a 6-year-old.) In the context of the movie, it's about grief, but I do think it's very applicable to many different aspects of life. While I obviously see the importance of making long-term goals, I often find looking at the bigger picture to be very stressful. Instead of thinking about my Friday weigh in all week or how I need to lose about 100 pounds, I'm going to try to focus on living more in the moment and doing what I know is right for my body, one choice at a time.
Just do the next right thing.