Note: run-on ahead.
Wednesday, December 02, 2020
I may be struggling professionally but I am proud that I have not and am not eating my feelings. Refocusing, reading articles, and continuing to log on to Spark and be interactive has helped my mind shift into this change.
While I haven't moved as much as of late. I haven't pushed myself, physically. I have been letting my self off with basic chair movements, a little dancing here and there, some stretching. It is a far cry from what I used to do I am proud that I am still moving some, tracking my food and movement, as well as keeping up with weigh-in and posting. I am also consistently checking my water intake and reminding myself of how great I am doing. As a recovering perfectionist this means the world to me! For so long I would just give up when the going got tough because I couldn't/wouldn't do it just right. And although I struggle to find balance with this part of my behavior patterns professionally, I am proud to show true dedication in daily overcoming them relating to food/lifestyle choices.
I am still in this.
I know that I can do better and am determined that I will. But for now, in this moment, battling a migraine for the last several weeks, fighting feeling low due to not bringing in cash flow for 2 months (Life of a business owner) and relying on my husband, feeling the pressure of debt and poor financial decisions from before, I am grateful for the positives and clarity that keeping up with the things that I have is bringing me. I am grateful for all of these things and I am confident that I am doing what is right for me and what my mind needs right now.