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Almost the end of 2020...thank god!

Sunday, December 13, 2020

So many thoughts going through my mind right now....

First off, I never met my goal for my Birthday of losing weight before then. I am not going to beat myself up over it. I saw my PCP on Thursday for my right arm/shoulder/wrist and she told me I had gained 8 pounds since she saw me last in February. I am ok with that, just like she is. And, because I weigh myself every Monday, I know that I have been consistently at 267 give or take a few .0x. I am ok with that as well, because I am usually over 270 during the holidays.

So, what has been going on....? Well, if I have to tell people outside my closest friends and family, it has to be you! We enrolled my Mom in Hospice before Thanksgiving. (She's a very strong woman! She is definitely going to pass away on her terms!) 4+ years after a debilitating stroke, and she's still here with us. However, the pneumonia and the progression of heart failure is starting to take it's toll on her. She's still alert, and responds to us when we talk to her. So, that's a good sign. I know Hospice doesn't mean she's going to pass away soon, We (my brother, sister, Father, and I) had to make the decision to make sure there was no DNR and we wanted comfort care for her. I know I am very lucky she is still around to watch L&O SVU with and stuff, so I won't complain. Every extra day we have with her is a blessing. And, because she is under Hospice, we are able to see her at the Nursing Home. She's allowed 2 visitors at a time, and we're supposed to stay 30 minutes at a time, but we usually stay longer than that. (Which is all the more reason why I am extra careful these days when I go out and do things.)

I have seen so many of my friends lose parents this year due to something happening to them, and at least two were due to the pandemic. So, I am truly thankful that her nursing home has kept her safe - even when she was transported to the ER a couple times. Those masks and face shields though are a b*tch! I believe that is why I am having severe sinus issues right now. (see picture for reference)

I am still working from home. My employer made the decision over a month ago to postpone us going back to the office until early April. I am ok with that completely.
Our convention schedule is non-existent. Shows are getting announced for later in 2021. But, our first couple shows with Wizard World have yet to be determined. They are doing well with their virtual events. And, we're setup in their Vault. Plus, our eBay store is doing pretty good for Bryon. (Shows have always been his main source of income.)

I know the past 9 months have been hard on people, including my boyfriend, Bryon. It's just him and his cat at home. I 80 year old Dad, 21 year old niece, and my 49 year old brother just moved back home with us in June. Sometimes it does get a bit hairy having all these different personality types under one roof. But, I also have friends that I talk to and meet up with. And, the Nintendo Switch has helped my mental health as well. I try not to think about him being there alone with his cat, but he made the decision for us to live apart, not me. So, that's really his problem, not mine.

Another thing I am doing is creating a blog for writing, but its hard, because of work and stopping up at the Nursing Home. I truly forgot how much I love writing. I wrote a couple blogs for Comic Con Addicts and I write the monthly Newsletters for The Fandom Collective. But, just being able to express myself and stuff during this time was freeing.

I'll be looking to make changes in 2021 of some kind. I'm already looking to be more mindful eating with Weight Watcher's and using SparkPeople as a back-up tool. It worked well the first quarter of 2020 .And, I need to give away all those boxes of Hostess Lemon Cupcakes Bryon sent me for Christmas. (His gift really wasn't the cupcakes, it was diabetes.) I have a friend who works at a hospital, that I know her co-workers will appreciate it. I am not waiting till January 1st to make changes. Changes are happening now.

I'll be back before January 1st...I promise you.

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    I used to work Hospice, it's so comforting to all and my mom was in hospice prior to her death. It helped us so much. Is that a bit of sabotage, the cupcakes? Good move getting rid of them!

    184 days ago
    Your attitude seems positive considering the circumstances. Keep it up!
    184 days ago
    And hopefully near the end of COVID-19
    184 days ago
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