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Wednesday, February 10, 2021

A year ago today the 10th I had Pneumonia and I also had to rush my DH into the hospital at 2:30 am in the morning after falling and with what they say was Pneumonia. I did not get to see him till they called me early in the morning at 1am of the 12th. that he was not going to make it and I needed to get to the hospital. Well being sick it was hard for me to do , but I did drive myself and called my pastor to be with me.

When we got there they had him hooked to all sort of machines and IV's which our paperwork said not to do. They said it was the only thing keeping him alive. I had to make a decision that my DH and I had discussed and put in our last will and testament that we would not be on this type of stuff if we could not make it on our own. The DR'S said it was the only thing keeping him alive.

I had to make a decisions which for anyone is a hard one. My pastor and I prayed for 1hr and then I talked to the DR and said to pull all the plugs. This is what I knew my DH wanted. This my sound cruel, but it is what he wanted and and it was only 2 min later he was gone. I would not even wish for my worse enemy to have to do this to a love one. It was the hardest thing I ever had to do in my 76 years. We were together 25 years.

It will be 1 year on Friday and it has been the hardest year I have ever had to go through. Doing this blog will help and is helping me get through the next 3 day and I hope through the rest of the year.

God Bless you all just for reading and understanding why I did this blog and that it can help someone else that may have to do the same thing. Do not blame your as I did for many months.
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    I felt the need to check in to see how you are doing today. I hope you are on a path of healing but it may still feel really rough right now, so I wanted to send some encouragement, that you know others are inquiring about you, that you are important, and that I hope you keep your head up and keep going today.
    44 days ago
    I would like to thank each and everyone of you for your thoughts and prayers and comments. Yes I made it through even with a lot of tears, yes I remembered all the good times we had the 25 years, yes it still will be hard day to day for a while, but with the strength of God and my faith I will get through it and I will see him again in heaven.

    God Bless you all
    74 days ago
  • VDALE4
    It is a very difficult, when you have to go through our hard things in our lives. You know when the right decisions are made. God give us faith and peace when we trust him. I hope that this week will bring back many of the happy memories that you and your DH had, and remember all the blessing that you had together. Hugs during this time. emoticon
    81 days ago
    emoticon What a difficult decision to have to face. It was good that you and your husband had had those discussions. Your wedding picture is sweet and I'm sure you have a lifetime of wonderful memories to reminisce. Thinking of you. emoticon
    84 days ago
    You are incredibly strong and you did the right thing. I know it has been a terrible year for you. But you are doing great. Big hug from me.
    86 days ago
    Times like these are so important to share so you have others to be with you if not in person
    in spirit. I say a prayer for you daily and will continue to do so.
    Remember the happy times that will help to mend the soul.

    86 days ago
    86 days ago
    So sorry for your loss. God bless you.
    87 days ago
    I am so sorry for your loss and understand all too well. I hope you have some sort of support system for yourself.
    87 days ago
  • PDAWN12
    Bless you. I will pray for you. What a good wife. It is extremely unselfish, what you did, to give him peace.
    87 days ago
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