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Getting Use to being Alone

Sunday, March 07, 2021

Well my daughter was here for 4 days to take care of my Mom's dogs while my stepdad had spinal surgery. It was really nice to have her here close. She normally lives a couple hours away and with both our schedules only get to see each other for a day every month. Today she went back home and I am already missing her like crazy. I am learning though to be alone. My son is working now. He is 16 so I am not always alone. I think I might have a little bit of the empty nest syndrome starting. I do not have a significant other. It is just me as the adult in the house. My son works 4 days a week in the evenings. My friends are busy so I spend most of my time at home alone wishing I could be somewhere doing something. Last time I blogged my power steering pump had gone out in my car. Luckily that was covered under warranty. So I did not have to pay to get that fixed. Almost a month later we now have to get it in again as the automatic 4 wheel drive is having issues. It keeps getting locked in and it sometimes disables itself. Well there is no button. It is a new thing called automated 4 wheel drive. It can sense when you need it and make adjustments accordingly. Well it is not doing so well. There is also a humming in my back wheels. So I am not sure if that is all related or individual issues. I know wheel bearing can cause humming sounds. So it could be the 4 wheel drive or it could be the 4 wheel drive and wheel bearing. I called the shop and they are backed up by a week. They cannot get it in to look at it until 3/11/21. Which would not be so bad but I don't think I am going to be able to get that off work. There are already 2 people requesting that day off in my office and usually that is the max they will allow out of the office at one time. It is weird that all of a sudden this car is costing me a ton of money. If it were not for the warranty the power steering pump would have cost me $250. So now I am not sure what the 4 wheel drive issue is going to cost me. They don't know either but they do know that it needs to get looked at and they think I should sit there and wait for them to look at it because those vehicles where people are waiting in the lobby are given priority than if you drop off your vehicle. Which kinda makes me angry as I get in line and pull a number for you to put people ahead of me. That does not seem right. But I was told by the mechanic that that is exactly what they do. Any ways they also told me that they could not guarantee that it was safe to drive until then. Well I have no one who can help me get back and forth to work and I cannot afford to take the time off. So I am driving it. My town lost it's only cab service in October of last year. The insurance prices were too high for them to carry on so they closed their doors, and I cannot afford the price for uber or lyft. They are expensive. It is like $20 just to get me to work. It is horrible. I cannot afford that. I did get one of my co-workers to say they will pick me up for work and take me home. That would be great however I am not sure I should be hanging with her outside of work. I don't know her very well. Like we just met a week ago and I feel weird accepting help from someone I just met. I know I should be blogging about my weight loss and all that but I feel like everything affects your weight loss. If I am stressed out then I am not going to lose as much weight because my cortizone is going to be high in my body. Making me hold onto weight instead of release it. Well maybe this will help get it off my mind and out so that I don't stress over it. I hope whoever reads this has a great evening. I am hoping my car doesn't completely go out between now and the time I can get it into the shop.
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    Take a deep breath and accept the help. Who knows, that new co-worker could be a new best friend in time. Let people help you and reduce your stress.
    My daughter lives in the UK and I haven’t seen her in over a year, except on FaceTime several times a week. I miss her so much and don’t know when I can get to see her...
    138 days ago
    Very sorry that you have had so many difficulties. I am glad your daughter was able to stay with you for
    a couple days. Hopefully she can come back soon to help you again and give you company. It is hard to depend on others, but sometimes you have to. Ask people that works with your co-worker and see if she is reliable. Many people just want to help. Can you and your son share rides? It is good that you were able to write what was going on. Some days we just need to share our worries. I have basically done the same today. I do have a significant other, 46 years, but he went to do some carpentry work for my brother-in-law. He will be back Friday, so I am batching. I live out in the country, but I do have a working car. I was just watching 60 minutes, and I feel very blessed to have a home, food, water, and a vehicle. Think of all the good you have. Best Wishes and Have a Nice Evening. emoticon emoticon
    138 days ago
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