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The Loss Of Fritz

Wednesday, April 07, 2021

Today we made the extremely difficult decision to say goodbye to our dog Fritz. He was 12 years old and not doing well, but it didn't make it any easier. He was a gentle giant and one of the most well behaved dogs I've ever met.



When I woke up yesterday, he had completely lost all ability to use his back end. However, he was completely cognizant. We know we made the right decision, but I have no words for the loss I feel. I just laid next to him for a few hours until our vet office opened. He was neglected for a long time by my in laws before we took him last year. I'm just so sad we didn't have much time with him. He deserved a better life.



My husband is devastated. And my husband is not a very emotional person. He's been sobbing and his pain tears me apart. We just recently had one of our barn cats get hit by a car as well and he was the one who found her body in the road and brought her home. I know that traumatized him and now our dog is the first pet he's ever had euthanized. My anxiety has sky rocketed in the past 24 hours and I keep obsessively checking our other pets to make sure they're okay. We still have four cats and two goats.



I'm doing my absolute best to at least do the bare minimum to stay on track right now. If I stop exercising and taking care of myself, I know my anxiety and depression will just spiral. I've done ten minutes of exercise each day, drank at least a few cups of water, and tracked my calories. I haven't been eating super healthy, but I've been tracking and haven't overeaten. I haven't been sleeping, which is why I'm spilling my heart out to you right now.

Thank you all for the lovely comments and support. They've been helping me get through this week.
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  • GINALYN65
    I am so incredibly sorry for your loss. Its one of the hardest decisions we have to make, to put their quality of life over our need for them to be with us. He was a fantastic dog, and you gave him the very best life you could. Be gentle with yourself. I am thinking of you! emoticon emoticon
    38 days ago
  • LESLIELENORE
    I am so sorry for your loss!
    39 days ago
  • MISS_STELLA1
    I am so very sorry that you had to make the difficult decision to help Fritz pass over the Rainbow Bridge. I am sending you prayers and hugs and hope that you will see that you made the best decision you could for Fritz even though you will miss him every day. You gave him the best year of his life and I can tell you that he knew that you loved him. Be kind to yourself and know that Fritz if safe now. emoticon
    40 days ago
  • A-STRONGER-ME
    So very sorry for your loss.
    40 days ago
  • CATNURSE1
    In all honestly, I've had pets for 50 years, all different all unique and all for different lengths of time, as old as 17 years and as young as 6 weeks. It always hurts, and if I were to say otherwise, I'd be lying.

    I was a veterinary assistant for over 15 years. I worked at two different clinics, staying long enough to see the birth and death of some pets. As hard as it was sometimes, I always felt honored when clients asked that I help them in the end. To know they trusted me enough for their pets' last time on earth was an honor.

    What's important for you and your husband as well as Fritz is that you were together in the end. You gave Fritz his happy ever after, regardless of how short it was. To have a happy memory when it was his time to go is what matters most.

    The greatest gift of love is letting go. Fritz was very lucky to have you. My prayers to you and your family.
    40 days ago
  • ITS_MY_TURN_NOW
    I am so sorry for your loss. emoticon emoticon
    40 days ago
  • IMNOTSTOPPIN
    So sorry you and your hubby lost your dear dog, Fritz. I know it's the hardest thing to do, to put down your beloved pet but you did the courageous thing. I put down my cat and stayed with her thru it. It was like she went to sleep. You helped take away Fritz' pain. I know he is in doggie heaven romping around. Praying . . .
    40 days ago
  • CHERIRIDDELL
    Oh I am brokenhearted for you both .Fritz knew you loved him you did what was best for him.Someone once told me "Heaven is where all the dogs you have ever loved run to great you" so one day Fritz will be waiting for you again. I was also told about the pet's Last Will and Testament , the only thing a dog has to leave behind is his loving family so when you have had enough time find another dog who needs a home and Fritz will be happy for this dog to have his spot. emoticon
    40 days ago
  • RUTHSHEPHERD1
    Honey my heart breaks for you. Sorry for your loss.
    40 days ago
  • NOVEMBERGAIL
    Fritz is a very loved dog! He was blessed with great persons. I am so sorry for your loss. Each pet holds such a special place in our hearts and their deaths leave a love hole that will always hold beautiful memories.
    Peace.
    40 days ago
  • MUVFASTA
    Fritz is such a beauty! I am so very sorry for your loss. My heart hurts for you and your hubby. emoticon
    40 days ago

    Comment edited on: 4/7/2021 9:26:55 PM
  • SERENEART
    I'm so sorry for your loss. I know how hard that is put a dog down. You and your husband are in my thoughts and prayers. emoticon
    40 days ago
  • DBEAU57
    So sorry for your loss. Losing a pet is so hard. Please know we are all thinking and praying for you at this time.
    40 days ago
  • HARRIET8AL
    Ohh, I am so sorry for your loss. Our pets are family members and the pain of loss is real and deep. Fritz knew how much he was loved and that is why he was so gentle with you. You did the right thing giving him a home and tending to him in his final days. Heaven is the place where all the dogs (pets) you have ever loved run to greet you. HUGS!
    40 days ago
  • JILLIAN0216
    Dogs leave paw prints on our hearts. I am in tears for you and your husband. Fritz was so lucky to have spent this last year with you. You did the right thing for him. It does not make the pain any easier. Sending love your way.
    40 days ago
  • SUSANM18
    It is very hard but you did the right thing and Fritz understands. I have Mike and Pepper now, but the two dogs prior to them were both German Shepherds, and both lost the use of their back ends. It is very common with shepherds. Not that it helps with the hurt, but knowing that you gave him his dignity and took away his pain will help. They trust us to take care of them, including having to make the hardest choice of all on their behalf.

    Sending you cyber-hugs.

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    40 days ago
  • SALTLIFE45
    I am so sorry for your loss :-( It certainly is devastating when you have to make such a decision, but know that it was the correct one. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your husband during this time.
    40 days ago
  • MADAMES
    So sorry for your loss. It is devastating.

    40 days ago
  • CATWMNCAT
    I'm so sorry to hear of your losses. It is so very hard to lose love ones, even when they have fur they are still loved and part of the family! Sending many prayers and good vibes for you and your family... may your pain be replaced with fond memories and good times! emoticon emoticon emoticon
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    40 days ago
  • OKBACK2MEAGAIN
    My heart breaks for you. Fritz will leave lasting paw prints in your heart and many good memories too. emoticon
    40 days ago
  • IOWAGRAMMA
    I am very sorry for your loss, Rachel, and hope that soon you will be able to find some peace in the good memories that Fritz will bring to you and your family. emoticon
    40 days ago
  • SUNDOG101
    It is always so hard and sad when we lose a much-loved pet. I am so sorry for your loss. and the decisions they trust us to make at this time are ones that break our hearts. But always remember our fur babies live in our heart and nothing can take that away. The memories live forever and the bond never breaks.
    40 days ago
  • KATHRYNGC
    My heart cries for you and your hubbie. I still will hear noises and say Austin. But I dont cry, I actually smile cause I know its him still about the house. Lost him think its been four to six years ago. He 's a yellow Lab and had turned 17 a few months earlier. Sending lots of emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon .
    40 days ago
  • SIORANTH
    I had three GSDs and had to put my old girl Sage to sleep a few months ago. I am so sorry for your loss. It is such a difficult decision to make. Take care of yourselves while you grieve. emoticon
    40 days ago
  • EMMACORY
    I feel your pain and loss. Even though you know you had to let him go over the rainbow bridge it still is sad. May your happy memories bring you healing. Hugs and prayers!
    40 days ago
  • EMMACORY
    I feel your pain and loss. Even though you know you had to let him go over the rainbow bridge it still is sad. May your happy memories bring you healing. Hugs and prayers!
    41 days ago
  • KALISWALKER
    emoticon I am so sorry for your loss. Dogs are family members so I quite understand the sorrow that you and your husband feel.
    41 days ago
  • TURKEYLEGS19
    I'm so sorry. I know it hurts. Dogs are people too. I'm glad that you have taken time to still care for yourself. I don't know if I would be able to do that. emoticon
    My name TurkeyLegs19 comes from the postion of how my dog lies down.. looks like turkey legs...and her birthday is on Jan 19th.

    Much healing for yall. emoticon
    41 days ago
  • 7STIGGYMT
    I'm so sorry ! I've been where you are. I miss my Molly so much at times.
    41 days ago
  • PATRICIA-CR
    I'm so happy he knew what real love is. Dogs are not like us, for him this last year was his entire life! He couldn't be happier. I totally understand you and feel for you. I even cry when I talk about this. They give us more than we deserve. Remember, they are our angels on Earth. Rejoice for the good life you gave him. And grief as much as needed for his absence.
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    41 days ago
  • DIANEDOESSMILES
    Hugs Rachel, as I glance over at Izzy. Izzy is in heart failure, how long she'll last I have no clue. Fritz had a rough life, UP UNTIL he came to you both. Oh man ,, I've read so many books about dogs, cats etc. In them, a pet asks that's not taken care of "Why wasn't I loved the way I should of been?" Or taken care of as well as they should of been. BUT Rachel you and H did answer that for Fritz, you DID take such great care of him, and I remember when you'd visit him you'd love him up. He KNEW when it counted the most, that he WAS ABSOLUTELY INDEED worthy of the LOVE he so craved, and the care he do badly desired. You both did that for him.

    It sure does hurt to lose our pets, and to of lost 2 of them so closely ouch!! Perchance where they close? Even when they aren't and one notices the other one isn't around, they go downhill fast.

    Many hugs, if we didn't love so deeply ,,, we of not had all the love from them in our lives, but we did/ DO love them deeply. Ever so deeply, when they die, it hurts so much, because they allowed us to love them, and they in turn loved us. That's what makes pet owners so special. LOVE
    41 days ago
  • KATIE5668
    Tis the final act of love ..to relieve their pain..but such a heartrending decision. Indeed look at the good times..the love and devotion you gave and Fritz returned. Two pets in such a short time is tough!!
    My German Shepard did that same thing..he just went from running to not being able to take 4 steps without falling over.
    Hugs across the miles.
    41 days ago
  • SHERYE
    There is nothing more heartwarming than the love of a furbaby. I'm so sorry that you had to make that decision it's not an easy one to make and not a fair one. Try to focus on all the good times you had with Fritz he wouldn't want you to be sad but happy that you did have the short time together. It's not fair that they don't live forever emoticon emoticon
    41 days ago
  • BKRMKRLGHT
    I am so sorry. emoticon
    41 days ago
  • DEBBY4576
    I am so sorry. I had to do the same thing a few years ago with the same age dog who had loss the use of his back legs....but came and went. He could no longer hold his pee and worried all day about us seeing he had peed in the house. He also froze up at times and couldn't move. Of course the day we had to put him to sleep he acted better. It's heart wrenching. The pain is very real.
    41 days ago
  • IAMTHEELLIE
    Putting an animal down is always horrible. I'm so sorry for your loss!
    41 days ago
  • GOLFGMA
    So sorry. It was best for Fritz not to suffer and be sure he loves you for understanding. Prayers for you and your DH.
    41 days ago
  • KENDRACARROLL
    I am so sorry for your loss of Fritz.
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    41 days ago
  • JACKIEWALKS4FUN
    So sorry emoticon
    41 days ago
  • NEPTUNE1939
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    41 days ago
  • ACLOUDBERRY
    I'm so sorry for your loss!
    41 days ago
  • RODILLA68
    So sorry for your loss
    41 days ago
  • CHAR46SUE
    I am sorry for your loss. emoticon
    41 days ago
  • HEATHERDAWN55
    Im so sorry, the decision to out down a pet is so very hard. It is real grief. I shake my head in bewilderment when people think it is less because it was an animal. It isnt and sometimes it is more. Keep taking care of you.❤
    41 days ago
  • no profile photo MLR_00
    Sorry for your loss. It’s tough.
    41 days ago
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