Back and even more determined.
Monday, May 03, 2021
I had to take a longer break then I thought. I have been suffering with sinus infections and just being down right stressed to the max. I took a chance and put myself out there for a job with my company. I worked for this company for over two decades. Well lets just say that when they say they don't shop in their own back yard it is pure truth! I worked hard and stressed and jumped through all the hoops and all for naught. I have had to work this last week through antibiotics and a rough attitude. I am determined I am not going to let this kick me down. I am angry and saddened. I was utterly disrespected and treated badly. Through the whole process they had been respectful and then out of the blue like a bolt of lightening it came to not being respectful and pretty darn insulting. A majority had my back but didn't stand up to a select few. I usually smile and nod and just do what is deemed right or what others want but this time I took care of myself. I will be darned if I will put myself into a situation where I can not be successful just because it is available. I am not eating a turd sandwich anymore.
I actually have taken steps to take care of me. It has taken me over 45 years to learn I am worth it. I have always been the steady one that takes the punches and keeps going while everyone else moves on like nothing is happening. I blocked the punch this time and am making myself a priority. So I am moving my thoughts to this not being a bad thing but a saving grace and and motivation for me to take care of myself! I am using the disappointment and frustration as fuel to help me be even better than I was and to take care of me. The best revenge is to be happy especially when some people don't want you to be.
Ok venting over. I just had to get that out. I don't want that toxicity in my head any more. I want positivity and good things. I am determined. I have teetered lately between positive and negative. I am working so hard to land on the positive side! Determination!!!!!!!
I worked my rear off today on the recumbent bike, did my weights and stretches and have watched my food. I am excited and ready to move forward! So here we go on a exciting positive journey!