Sunday, May 09, 2021
My life is, in many ways, ideal.
I have a job which challenges me in good ways, keeps me alert and interested, pays my bills with a tiny bit left over and has me working with people I really enjoy.
I have something that's between a hobby and second job which is my passion, lets me play and explore and create, brings me together with beloved friends and a strong community.
I have friends. I have a safe and comfortable home. I have good relationships with my family.
And my life is falling apart.
My mother's health has been failing in spectacular ways for the past few years, and the looming, constant nibble of worry is taking its toll.
I've regained the 100 pounds I lost 10 years ago, stress eating, drinking too much, not taking time or energy to be active even though I love it when I do.
I'm drained and tired by the end of every day.
I struggle with my knees. Stairs are a thing now and they never were before.
I'm isolating more and more, finding solace in being alone and neglecting friendships.
I've been with SparkPeople before, and I know that if I dedicate some time and energy here I can use this place to lift myself up in more ways than just weight loss, that if I do that I can be here for others, in my life, online, anywhere I go.
So here I am, beginning again.