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How do I talk to myself and get on with this?
Thursday, May 13, 2010      7 comments

I don't know exactly what I want to learn by talking to myself. I guess if I knew that I would not have to have the conversation. I say I want to go on this journey. I say that I want to enjoy the journey and lose the weight. I write lists o... Read more
Living according to my values... Am I?
Wednesday, May 12, 2010      2 comments

I have been in a funk lately. I am not sure why. I don' t know how to get out. I just read the healthy reflection that made me ask if I was living according to my values. There are some that I can say a loud and sure yes. Some I would... Read more
How is your diet commitment?
Thursday, May 06, 2010      8 comments

Here is something I was thinking about. I think there are similarities in the commitment the steps to a healthy lifestyle can be like the steps to a healthy relationship. In the beginning one can think longingly ... someday I would lik... Read more
What do I need?
Thursday, May 06, 2010      7 comments

I think I need a vacation. I read someone else write that. I have been in a funk. Even my walking partner noticed. For a few months now. OK I am struggling to accomplish my goals anyway. I am not making myself get things done. I don... Read more
Yesterday is over and today is a new day.
Wednesday, May 05, 2010      1 comments

Nothing brilliant in the title. I was in some kind of funk yesterday and I am hoping that today will be better. I am planning to eat ph 1 South Beach today. I just wanted to eat everything in sight yesterday. I was kind of in a funk all day.... Read more
Today I want to eat...
Tuesday, May 04, 2010      3 comments

I ate a breakfast and was still hungry. I ate a bit more and now all I want to do is eat. I got to find something else to take my mind off of it. I don't know what the problem is but I am chewing gum and going to not eat anything else until l... Read more
Well, what do you think of yourself?
Monday, May 03, 2010      5 comments

I just read the healthy reflection that included this quote: One man's creativity is another's brain damage. - Roland Fischer I love this. In my kids I encourage unusual thinking. It has gotten them far. My son that just left invented... Read more
On Day 4 of no sugar
Saturday, May 01, 2010      8 comments

Yes I have started the 4th day without sugar. It is harder than I thought and easier than I could have dreamed. Let me explain. It is harder because the mind plays tricks to remind me of all the treats that I love. Some I could have bought i... Read more
Grateful to be moving on...
Friday, April 30, 2010      6 comments

I had some ideas yesterday about what might be making me not lose weight. I was asked what I am gong to do about it. I have no idea. I am hopeful that just being aware of it will help. I am working to be aware of any self sabotage. Sometim... Read more
Growing up
Thursday, April 29, 2010      7 comments

I have been thinking about my motivation and what might be the cause of such a slow weight loss. I have learned and I have changed and I have lost 10 pounds and gained 10 pounds and I am tired of playing games with myself. I decided yesterday ... Read more
Wednesday, April 28, 2010      5 comments

I am on a journey to lose weight. I am working to be who I am and notice who I am. I want so badly to celebrate this as day 1. My son left and all the craziness to get him packed and such is done. I will miss him but I am so glad that he mad... Read more
One week...
Tuesday, April 20, 2010      10 comments

My number 2 son leaves to serve a mission for our church next week on Tuesday. I am overjoyed that he has chosen to do this. It is a very happy and exciting time for him. The things that he will learn and the people he will serve will c... Read more
I am at the crossroads.
Monday, April 19, 2010      9 comments

I am about to have a great success or a colossal failure. I am not sure which it will be. I have been feeling stressed for a while now. I need a change. I am making a change. Change is hard for me. I have not been accomplishing much in the... Read more
A part 2 still human
Saturday, April 17, 2010      6 comments

I have been thinking about what I wrote and what others responded. I appreciate all the positive feedback and concern. I needed time to process it all I am not exactly sure why I wrote it. I really want to say that in my noncyber life ... Read more
I can face it. I just don't want to be human.
Wednesday, April 14, 2010      18 comments

Two weeks before my 6th birthday I was traveling from my grandmothers home back to my home with my mother, my sister and my 10 month old baby brother. I don't know if Mom fell asleep, if she was distracted or if something happened with another ... Read more

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