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105 pounds lost so far...
Monday, January 27, 2020      4 comments

Back in July, I fell into a coma. All of my organs shut down, mainly from alcohol intoxication. I was put on a ventilator, a feeding tube, and catheters. I came out of it in 3 weeks and spent another 3 weeks in the ICU. Then I was put onto the r... Read more
4 weeks
Friday, March 01, 2019      4 comments

A month ago, i decided to get sober. I had lost my appetite while binge drinking for the past year, and, gratefully, my appetite didnt return. I was surprised, day after day, I had no interest in alcohol or food. I took advantage of this op... Read more
Sunday, July 08, 2018      9 comments

This chart shows that I am right on the mark when it comes to breaking down what I eat into the 3 categories: protein, fat, and the dreaded carbohyd... Read more
Failure lies not in falling down...
Thursday, April 26, 2018      7 comments

“If you have made mistakes, even serious mistakes, you may have a fresh start any moment you choose, for this thing we call "failure" is not the falling down, but the staying down."- author Mary Pickford Every time I leave SP, I stay gone b... Read more
5 years and 152 pounds later...
Friday, September 22, 2017      10 comments

It's been almost a week since I decided to get back on my food plan and go to the gym 3x/week. You'd think that, at 47, I would have stopped being a... Read more
Staying on track
Sunday, September 09, 2012      12 comments

It's been a year since my last blog, and I've gained 50 pounds since. It's a hard thing to admit and an even more difficult thing to fix. But if I can do even 60% of the c... Read more
Visiting 200’sville
Friday, September 16, 2011      26 comments

Proverbs 17:1 A dry crust eaten in peace is better than a great feast with strife. The summer is over and my birthday is coming up: 11-11-11. I had planned to spend these past 12 weeks working out and eating right so that I could give mysel... Read more
On Losing 152 Pounds
Wednesday, July 06, 2011      58 comments

This blog is dedicated to my SP Friend WillowWind, who struggled so valiantly with malignant obesity. She was only 44. Rest in peace, dear, dear lady. In Decem... Read more
Me on my Cybex Arc Trainer in June 2010 (video blog)
Saturday, June 25, 2011      19 comments

I was about 290 pounds when this video was made. I bought this outstanding machine from a gym for $1,200 (it's about $7,000 new). It's built for people up to 400 pounds and is proven to minimize stress to the knee joints.... Read more
Friday, May 27, 2011      21 comments

Adoption has been a painful theme through the course of my life. When I was a baby, my mother married a man who adopted me and changed my name. Five years later, he divorced her and abandoned me. When I was 15, my mom took off and I was left to ... Read more
July 2010 Chicago LATE Ride (video blog)
Thursday, April 21, 2011      16 comments

I was so ashamed of my size that I didn't have the courage to upload this video at the time it was made. I weighed about 290 pounds, which was 60 pounds down from my heaviest. I was participating in Chicago's LATE ride, which starts at midnight ... Read more
Shame and Pride
Monday, April 11, 2011      27 comments

Shame is “an acutely self-conscious state in which the self is 'split,' imagining the self in the eyes of the other.” The crux of the problem of shame is the imagining part. At 350 pounds, I assumed that others thought I was lazy, ignorant,... Read more
Wednesday, March 16, 2011      16 comments

I am desperate to meet the Ginger that was meant to be, the girl poised to graduate into the best class of women. Though she can walk and talk like them now, she masks the depth of her depravity. Within that class, there is a woman toward ... Read more
Jealousy is no friend of fitness
Tuesday, March 08, 2011      18 comments

I recently babysat for a nice family. As nice families do, they offered me free and limitless access to their fridge, pantry, and cabinets. I vainly protested: “I can’t in... Read more
Self love
Tuesday, March 01, 2011      21 comments

I could not sleep last night. My son is dropping out of high school. My mortgage jumped a prohibitive $400 a month. I have a court date in the morning. And I still mourn t... Read more

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