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Monday, March 22, 2021      2 comments

I know is for the best But right now it really hurts You say it really sucks But I think you got it wrong Those aren't the right words Because "really sucks" is a major understatement My heart is breakin' Right now it f... Read more
Tuesday, March 16, 2021      2 comments

They had to let go To save themselves Their feelings like a drug Kept them addicted They tried to push away so many times But only succeeded in Pulling each other closer every time. Here they are once again Making anoth... Read more
Sunday, January 24, 2021      3 comments

I can feel you coming for me again... I'm getting tired of sick twisted game. You play it so well, Always staying just out of my sight. You keep me off-balance, unwell You latch on to me like a parasite. You hunt me, Taunt me I don't know what... Read more
The Inner Critic
Saturday, January 16, 2021      3 comments

You fight. You fight everything and everyone... Including those who would help. Everything and everyone is against you, including yourself. You are always on alert, always judging, always looking for ulterior motives... A threat... Read more
The Victim
Wednesday, January 13, 2021      0 comments

She over reacts to the small things... The things that no one would think twice about can leave her curled in a fetal position. The darkness an insurmountable mountain of which she can't see the peak. Unable to see the way around... Read more
Why Must We Give It A Name?
Friday, January 01, 2021      0 comments

I can feel my stitched up heart start to pull apart. The blood start to drip As you bring up these memories. Don't you know some things are better left unmentioned? Why must we talk about this demon? Why must we give it a name?... Read more
Who Could I have Been?
Sunday, December 06, 2020      3 comments

Who could I have been had you not destroyed the decent part of me? Had everyone convinced I was rotten Had everyone convinced it was my fault That you were broken. Had everyone convinced....even me. And even in this madness,... Read more
Sunday, December 06, 2020      2 comments

You asked for my trust I gave you that part me that that no one knows. I gave you that part of me that's a stranger Even to myself. Now I'm here flipping through emotions Unable to settle, that part of me is a danger Even to my... Read more
Saturday, October 17, 2020      0 comments

I can feel you coming for me The smell of weakness drawing you in. I fight so hard to replace you with something better To replace what you take To heal the scars you leave. But there are holes in my armor And the scars are... Read more
Wednesday, October 14, 2020      1 comments

I thought I was free Thought I had beat the monster that lurks beneath Instead it holds me close and won't let go It's suffocating me. I wish I could change the thoughts that run rampant in my mind Wish that I could stop spiralin... Read more
Updated Numbers/Current Goals
Saturday, April 06, 2019      4 comments

I don't think I have done this in a while, but here is my progress in terms of numbers. I was supposed to be getting professionally evaluated tomorrow but they had to cancel due to some technical issues during testing. The Body Pod Technic... Read more
Mental Progress and Weddings
Friday, April 05, 2019      2 comments

I got me my new pants and totally in love! I took my progress picture so if you haven't seen it yet, go check it out on my profile- what are you waiting for? I never paid attention to sizing much, but I've gone from a size 18 to a size 4! To... Read more
Mentally Exhausting Week
Saturday, March 30, 2019      6 comments

This week I've been feeling down on myself because I'm having issues controlling my unhealthy snacking habits. Thankfully I was able to once again kick energy drinks out of my day, but I've substituted it with tic tacs and altoids. They are ... Read more
I'm plateauing :(
Saturday, March 23, 2019      7 comments

I've decided to lower my caloric intake back to 1300 from the 1400 I'm currently at. I've been stuck since February jumping back and forth between the same 3 lbs. I thought going back to the gym would budge the scale in the right direction... Read more
I did this over the weekend
Monday, March 18, 2019      6 comments

Played around with the camera on my new phone. Don't be fooled. It was 45 degrees farenheit that day. Wearing my Fresh & Fit Lace Sports bra in black ... Read more

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