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Slipping Up
Thursday, February 02, 2017      6 comments

I had been doing well with normal eating but have dipped back into bingeing the past month or so. My life has taken a sad turn and I am looking to food for comfort and distraction. I was doing ok with the eating at first so I need to remember ... Read more
What's New
Thursday, October 13, 2016      2 comments

It's been awhile I know it's true Since last I tried to write to you. The time it seems to hurry by No time to rest or wonder why. The world is changed for me and you Not for the better but naught to do. We try our best with what we have We tu... Read more
The Panic Reaction
Wednesday, July 20, 2016      4 comments

One of my SP friends wrote a blog recently about not panicking after missteps. It's a change in thought process that I've become aware of in my own life. I used to think that I had to panic/restrict/beat myself up after a binge as punishment a... Read more
Thoughts on a Binge
Tuesday, July 12, 2016      4 comments

I binged on chocolate last night. It was a conscious choice and I felt guilty afterwards, as well as physically ill. Yuk. On the other hand, I had an idea going in of how much I was going to eat and I stopped after I ate it. So what caused t... Read more
A Ghost From the Past
Thursday, July 07, 2016      5 comments

I saw a ghost from the past today. I was at a crosswalk waiting for the light to change and standing beside me was a young woman/girl who was clearly anorexic. Thin, twiggy arms and legs, huge eyes in an emaciated face, and goose bumps on her ... Read more
The Siren Song of the Scale
Wednesday, June 29, 2016      2 comments

I have been struggling lately with overeating. Not bingeing, just eating more than I feel I should at dinner and at night. I'm pretty sure I've gained a few pounds but because I don't weigh myself, I don't know how much. Not knowing the truth... Read more
Hanging In There
Friday, February 05, 2016      3 comments

Thanks for the CPK suggestions. I ended up having a half Cobb Salad minus the bacon but with added beets, dressing on the side. It wasn't anything special, but worked out great. Enough food on my plate to keep me busy through the whole meal b... Read more
California Pizza Kitchen Angst
Monday, February 01, 2016      4 comments

I'm having lunch with friends on Wednesday at CPK and looking at their nutritional info has thrown me for a loop. I expected high calories, but the sodium counts are unbelievable. The real danger, though, is that I usually have a light lunch a... Read more
A New Year Resolution
Sunday, January 17, 2016      4 comments

My NY resolution is to try not to be so judgmental about the amount of food that I eat. I tend to feel guilty whenever I eat "too much." This often leads to out-of-control eating, either a binge or several days of conspicuous overeating. Inst... Read more
A Spark Friend Lost and a New Year
Sunday, January 10, 2016      0 comments

I noticed today that my Spark Friend Sproutlet has disappeared. We had a lot in common and I feel a loss at her departure. I hope she is okay. The holidays were challenging for me. My downward slide started with a weigh-in in late Novemb... Read more
Thinking is Not Doing II
Thursday, September 10, 2015      3 comments

Allowing myself to think about bingeing without guilt seems to be helping. Before, the urge to binge and the binge was conflated into one thing. I was as much a failure for wanting to binge as I was for actually bingeing. Since I was already ... Read more
Thinking is Not Doing
Tuesday, September 08, 2015      5 comments

Thinking and not doing is usually a negative, as in having good intentions and not following through. When it comes to binge eating, though, thinking and not doing is a positive. I have been feeling like a failure for thinking about and wantin... Read more
What Would A Normal Person Do?
Tuesday, August 11, 2015      5 comments

I've been asking myself that question often lately. Sometimes it's when I want to binge - for example, would a normal person stuff themselves on leftovers when they have just eaten a nice dinner? Answer: No. More often, it's when I am guilti... Read more
Good Enough
Wednesday, August 05, 2015      3 comments

My new motto is "good enough", as in good enough eating, good enough weight, good enough exercise, and good enough binge control. I had been feeling badly about not losing the weight I gained while we were traveling. I felt pretty down on myse... Read more
What I Learned from Travel
Thursday, June 25, 2015      2 comments

Hubby and I are back home after a couple of months of living out of suitcases. I was sure that I would gain a lot of weight because of not being able to run/exercise as much as usual and because of all the eating out. But, when I weighed mysel... Read more

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