I wake up every day with the realization that this is it, that there's only one shot at this life and I can either enjoy the ride and live it to its fullest and to my highest potential or I can stay the way I am.
I am extremely happy - we got our first house, rent to own and it's beautiful. Making arrangements, packing, more exercise : ) Move in date September 1st trying to start getting stuff in in mid August. My whole family is so happy and we can't wait to be in there. New change, new things, my weight loss is going great!!!!!!!!!!! God, thank you for all you've given us!!!!
current weight: 263.0
Fitness Minutes: (71,584)
1,682 7/30/10 9:44 P
I wish I could say I'm happy right now, but I am concerned about Steven (more so than myself)--we have no money and he hasn't been paid by his client yet. I'm strangely calm about myself, though. My Mother's cousin is at death's door with the last stages of cancer, and my cousins (her daughters) are at her bedside 24/7. I want to help my Mom in her goals, but I am not in a good position to do much good. I want to be happy--but I'm suffering right now.
Not that I feel like that every day - but I do figure that happy isn't a place you get to park your car forever. We all are gonna go through some painful or difficult times. Knowing that makes me feel grateful for the happiness that does come into my life - and takes away from the expectation that if it's not there for a little while, there's something horribly wrong or bad going on.
Wilderness is not a luxury but a necessity of the human spirit - Edward Abbey
What is to give light must endure burning - Viktor E. Frankl